I get this desire to just disappear. Delete every trace of me that ever existed. See what happens. See if anyone really noticed, or even cared.
It’s selfish. And unfair.
But sometimes, I just feel so non-existent that I want to make that true.
What stops me is the fear that what I am feeling really is true. That what I do in my life really doesn’t impact anyone. That I don’t really change anything. It’s the fear of being forgotten that prevents me from disappearing.
And I’m so afraid of the day when that fear is no longer there. … What will stop me then?