John Lennon was the one who sang, “Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.” But what if life doesn’t happen to you when you’re following your plans? What if, instead of delaying your life like you believe you are doing, you’re actually molding your life into what it’s going to [...]
The thing that scared me the most about yesterday was not that I was willing to give up completely, but the lack of hesitation. I didn’t hesitate. I didn’t ponder whether it was something I truly needed to do (because it was already a given that it was). I didn’t lock myself in a closet [...]
“The Queen of Swords indicates a woman who is blessed (or cursed) with sharp perception, and highly honed intuition. She is acutely analytical, with a razor-sharp ability to get to the heart of a situation, seeing exactly what is, rather than what others would wish her to see.
She is a private woman, unwilling to [...]
I get this desire to just disappear. Delete every trace of me that ever existed. See what happens. See if anyone really noticed, or even cared.
It’s selfish. And unfair.
But sometimes, I just feel so non-existent that I want to make that true.
What stops me is the fear that what I am feeling [...]
When I was in high school, I posted all the pictures I had at my disposal on my walls. Almost every inch of three walls were covered with all the memories miraculously captured on film. I chose the pictures that made me smile, made me happy, made me forget where I was – even if [...]
As a general rule, I don’t regret many of the impulsive choices I’ve made in my life (save for one or two). I made the decision to move to Los Angeles based off one phone conversation with Ipsa*. After one lecture of AsianAm studies, I decided to go to law school. Both choices, made immediately [...]
“how do I slow down? / I can’t relate to my heart now / I’ve thrown what I know ( is it enough of me?) out “
I’m emotionally drained right now.
I think I’ll disappear, in my head, in the air
for a chance to feel, so far … far away [...]